Ever since I could remember, I have struggled with worrying too much. I worried so much that it began to take a toll on me. I became anxious, nervous, and I had trouble catching my breath. It started to affect me until I started placing my cares and my burdens at the feet of Jesus. Once I began to do that, the less and less I was anxious or worried. Every so often, I do have nervous breakdowns and struggle with anxiety, but when I do, I realize that it is because I have not fully surrendered it to Christ. I can fully say that because of what happened to me this year.
It was the day after New Year’s and I was in deep distress. I was sitting on my couch watching TV, but I couldn’t focus on the show in front of me. I was so overwhelmed, anxious, and nervous about the situations in my life, and the idea of going to school the next day, was absolutely terrifying. My dad was beginning to have trouble seeing in one eye and the idea that he could possibly lose his ability to see in that eye was scary. My mom was diagnosed with pre-diabetes, and it was starting to affect her. She was, in a sense, depressed and as her daughter, it was so sad and awful to watch her joy dwindle down. On top of that, I had friendship troubles, and we did not leave on good terms before Christmas break. I was afraid of what people would say about me, or how they would treat me. I did not know what to do. I was worried, and on the verge of having a nervous breakdown. I was pacing back and forth; my heart was beating faster and faster with just the thought of going back and facing all these people. I struggled with these emotions almost half the day, until I stopped and took a deep breath. In that moment, I realized I was going about this the wrong way. I closed my eyes and I prayed. I prayed that God would fill me with His peace, and give me guidance on what I was supposed to do. When I started to worry, I prayed. When I began to feel anxious and nervous, I prayed. I prayed every second of the rest of the day because I felt that one prayer wasn’t enough. I did not think that God was listening to me, so I prayed again and again. But God did hear my prayers that day. As I was sitting on the couch, waiting for dinner, I opened the Bible app and you wouldn’t believe what the verse of the day was.
“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
I felt as though a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders when I read this verse. I cried tears of joy because God heard the cry of my overwhelmed and troubled heart.
“From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”
The more and more worry I found within my life, the more I began to doubt God. Worry can be compared to a tire stuck in mud. You can try and try to spin the wheels to get out of the mud, but it’s useless. You will not get anywhere unless someone comes in to pull you out of there. Ladies, the more worry you have, more “stuck in the mud” you will be because you are not letting God help set you free from the stress of life.
The minute you take your eyes off of your situation and place them upon The Lord, the smaller your problems become.
When the disciples were in the boat in the raging storm, they were afraid. But when the disciples saw that Jesus had the power to calm the storm, their fear diminished. When the troubles of life are overtaking you, know that God has the power to calm the storm and He will give you His peace to endure.
Worry, stress, and anxiety are all sins. Why? Because it makes you doubt in who God is and what He is capable of. I encourage you to give it all to the Lord. There are so many situations in our lives that are too big for us to handle. In fact, when these problems get so huge and out of control, it’s because it isn’t meant for us to solve. God cares and loves each and every single one of you, His beautiful daughters. I encourage you to read Luke 12:22-28. My beloved sisters, the Lord has you in the palm of His hand! He carried all your burdens to the cross and crucified them, so that you don’t have the slightest worries. Whether its financial issues, family, friendships, God knows. He will give you exactly what you need.
He is always faithful!
If you ever find yourself worrying, stressing, or doubting God…..
Written by: Kimberly