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An Open Letter to the Broken, Hurting, Confused, Lost:
Oh dear one, if you only knew how much the Lord has done and is going to do for you. I’ve been there. I have laid on my bathroom floor crying and shaking my fist at the Lord wondering why He has left me. I have wondered why He hasn’t taken my pain. I have shouted to the heavens and felt like my prayers simply bounced off the walls around me. I have seen blessing after blessing happen to seemingly everyone but me. I have felt so much disgust and shame and have felt enslaved to my own sin and wondered why I didn’t feel “saved” anymore. I have been there, maybe you are too. Maybe you’re there now, I’m right there with you. It’s agonizing. It’s defeating, but oh dear friend, it is not the end.
If you only knew how much the Lord has done, is doing, and will continue to do for you, you would weep endlessly with gratitude. See He has never left you, He has never forsaken you, and friend He never will. You must wrap your head and heart around that truth. Deuteronomy 31:6 tells us, “Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” These are not just words on a page, these are promises from the One who created the entire universe. I hope you know that I am preaching this to myself as much as I am to you. You see, I am not perfect either. I am a member of a ministry team called “Worth More” and today I feel like dirt on the ground. I feel like a failure. It was a struggle to get myself out of bed this morning. You are not alone. Here’s the thing though, and this is beautiful, your feelings about yourself are not always true. What? Let me say that again. Your feelings are NOT always true. I feel like a failure today; does that mean that I am a failure? Absolutely not. I feel disgusted and chained by my sin and shame, am I still held in bondage? Absolutely not. There are days where I feel that I am crying out to no one, is the Lord no longer with me? Absolutely not. Joyce Meyer said something like this: if your feelings disagree with scripture, your feelings are wrong. Friend do not let the enemy get a foothold in your heart. The Lord is making a way for you. He will never stop.
This time of confusion, this time of disappointment, this time of pain, it will end. Do not quit now. The Lord is not done with you yet. Imagine if you tried to see yourself the way your Heavenly Father sees you. What would that look like? 2 Chronicles 5:7 promises us that our steadfastness will be rewarded, we must not give up. So what do you do during this time? Press on. Cling to the cross with everything you have. Do not lose hope, dear one. Jesus Christ and hope are sometimes the only things we have left. I challenge you to read the story of Moses and the parting of the Red Sea (Exodus 13:17-14:29). When it seemed like death was imminent, the Lord provided a miraculous way out. In His perfect timing, He will do the same for you. I want to leave you with a quote that helped me understand why I may not be seeing my parting of the Red Sea yet, so to speak. Brittney Moses tells us that “many times when God isn’t changing your circumstances it’s because He’s mostly concerned with changing YOU within the circumstance. Your character, your inner strength, your integrity matters to Him because they are everlasting qualities. The wisdom, strength, and the maturity that grows within you are all things you’re going to need to sustain the calling God has on your life. Know that there is a purpose in your pain.” Keep fighting.
From One Broken but Growing Human to Another,